Love Lost .....

I still remember this day 3 years ago. Some memories remain as fresh as ever. Coz this was the day when I met a woman who I really hoped would change my life forever. Till this day I was your normal kinda guy a shy one at tht not much of a talker to ladies & an obedient boy to his parents one who liked to be at home in cse he was not occupied with anything else!!!!. ON tht faithful day, I was at office havin my lunch in the office canteen & I see this beautiful maiden sashayin down the lane dressed in a beautiful Kanjeevaram (or wotever they call it) saree since the occasion so demanded. Twas New year Day for all Mallus & us types i.e. Palakkad Iyers or TamBram as they call us. I don’t believe in celebrating all such days & occasions. Hell I don’t believe in celebratin my birthday!!!.

Till tht day I had always planned on living life as a bachelor. Dunno why but the idea of being single (also add alone!!!!) always appealed to me. I wud always long for days when my parents would go out on their daily shoppin & I get some time for myself alone. But this day, my decision changed & it remained so for a long period. Just like the skeptic appears daunted by hardcore evidence challenging his version of the story, I was forced to change my decision tht very instant & decided tht If I wud marry, I wud marry this woman. Mebbe the pull towards her was strong coz I could see all the characters in her tht I wanted in my wife!!!

Thn began the quest for the Holy Grail!!! I started gathering as much information abt her as possible. I am tht kinda man who always thrives on information however trivial tht maybe!!!! Cos I kno these wud always be of use somewhere. I collected details abt where she lived, wot she liked, How she was like, Her family background … & the like. Then there were always chance meetings when we wud come face to face & I wud have a smiling face & her face wud be like can be best explained like a fiery dragon which if it wanted wud engulf everything on its path. I kinda liked tht attitude of hers. This went on for months & I kind of also got to know her Birth date!!!. I sent her an email wishing her a Happy Birthday but was a touch disappointed when I received a “DELETED WITHOUT BEING READ” message (I still keep read receipts in all my emails!!!). But I never stopped tryin. I guess my only fault was tht I cudnt speak to her one to one man to man till the very end. But again no regrets for tht since even I am a kind of person who will surely pursue something till the finish But if I see tht it may not get over when I want it to, I let go. Talk abt the Arian quality of not seeing things till the very end & tht suits me perfectly.

& So it went on। Previously she used to sit at another place since our depts. Were different & the best part of the story is tht Both our Departments were at loggerheads wth each other!!. However as luck wud have it due to space constraint, her dept is one tht performs a very essential function in any financial institution to succeed, She shifted to a cabin next to our dept!!!. This enabled me to watch her closely & I tried to catch her gaze often. But my cool eyes were always met with the dragons red eyes & even my friends feared the same.

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